Soooo if i was asked to talk about myself in real life, I would prefer to be hanged instead, but y’all bring the yapper out of me (clearly not my fault.)
Uhhh i don't want this to be depressing so y’all better laugh 🤺
Well should I start with how i got an indigestion for the last few days since I returned to my hometown? ^^
ITS NOT MY FAULT BTW. The tension between my parents can be cut from a butter knife, and eating in that atmosphere is not exactly pleasant. I swear I'm going to get holes in my head by their stares.
I'm just tryna eat bro.
I realllllly want to learn skating. An older guy used to teach me when I was a kid cuz I stubbornly asked him to, as he was so cool while skating. But my clumsy ass fell on the stairs, broke my jaw and a half teeth. It was bad so he never taught me again.
Sigh.
Anyways remembering that, I'm also remembering that he used to call me by a nickname that i really used to hate but now i miss hearing it. It makes me feel like a kid.
To be honest, I want to be treated like a kid again. Not as a nighteen year old who's at college and boring as fuck.
I miss the moments when being alive wasn't so cringy and embrassing. I miss racing on bicycles. I miss hugging people like a koala. I miss eating ice popsticles. I miss building sandcastles and digging a hole into it then shaking hands under it. And it would either break or stand still, it was so freaking fun.
Would that be too immature? Idk. I don't really like being mature. It has never been a choice, but something i had to force myself to aquire. And i really love hugging people like a koala, but now that's called weird :(
Which might be the reason why I've turned out so petty. I don't really like overly optimistic people. They piss me off. Like really piss me off. And my luck is somehow that I'm surrounded by them. (Ahem I'm looking at you, mom.)
Cuz what do you mean by being “positive,” and “always think that it's God’s plan” when I'm at rock bottom and barely surviving?
I'm lowkey a hater. Yeah, you were all manipulated into thinking I was nice ^^
Anyways I've been dropping my brother off to his coaching these days and did I tell y’all that I ABSOLUTELY love to overtake cars and trucks while driving?
(I'm careful with my brother, don't worry gng)
Don't get me wrong, I love rain. But i hate getting wet, the clothes get sticky and that is horribleeee.
Sooooo I was reading a webtoon today, “A Kiss Before I Sleep,” (IT IS NOT WHAT YOU THINK IT IS, IT'S PUREEEEEE)
Anyway so i was reading it and the main characters were literally couple goals. Almost made me yearn for a boyfriend tskk.
I usually prefer to read childcare manhwas cuz they heal the inner kid me heheheh. And especially when the main character gets spoiled and encouraged to do whatever they want.
Give me a cold duke from the north. 💔
Though I'm into visual novel games these days. The psychological and horror ones are so good. I played one where the love interest was a yandere and i lowkey lost my shit 😰
I later found him cute—
Yandere love interests are obviously fucked in the head, but you know it gets a little boring if all love interests are just saints and green flags? Why not have a little fun ehhehe.
ANDDD imma info dump some shit i learned recently…
Menstrual cycle was researched by experimenting on rhesus monkeys. It was all fine since they were just observing the cycle and the hormonal levels. However, J.E Markee did an experiment, “Eye Chamber Tissue Transplant.”
He took a tiny piece of the monkey’s uterine lining and placed it into the monkey's eye. It was done so because the scientists had no way to watch what was happening to the tissue inside during a period without killing or opening up the animal. The tissue successfully attached, grew it's own blood cells, and actually behaved exactly like a mini-uterus inside the eye.
Because the cornea is completely see-through, Markee could look through a microscope and watch the tissue swell, change colors, bleed, and shed in real-time as the monkey's hormones changed throughout the month.
Broo loving the rain but hate getting wet part is SO RELATABLE!!
Loved the yap session and now you get to hear my thoughts!!
I NEED to know the nickname
You can be childish and immature Nd whatever you want to be because why would you suppress yourself for someone else
Optimists are so annoying, right? Like, let me imagine the worst case scenarios in peace 😭
Yanderes scare me, girl
I'm constantly amazed that I can still find it on myself to be horrified when I found about the ethics violations in research experiments
Overall, 10/10 yao session, will read again!!